KitagawaKeiko2006
      
2006-11-22 18:25

Subject: About feeling empty and exhausted
 

Yesterday I finally watched "The Devil Wears Prada"!

It's been a while since I've seen such a fine looking movie :)
There were lots of pretty clothes and accessories, and Paris was really beautiful!
If you're a woman then isn't that a world you absolutely yearn for?
I want the DVD when it comes out :)

I saw the announcement for the release of "Marie Antoinette" next year, so I'm looking forward to it too!
It and Lost in Translation were directed by Sofia Coppola, who's work I like, so I'm excited :)

However, what on earth is this feeling of emptyness and exhaustion that I'm not supposed to feel after watching a movie with a happy ending?
And moreover... what is it that makes me feel this way?

I realize it's fiction, but if the story develops far too easily
then after watching it something within me starts to rebel a little.
Maybe I want too much realism, but I just can't help it;

I'm apparently into the heavy stuff, I like movies that don't end in salvation.
I need lots to think about and to be able to emphatize with.
I think movies are interesting if the people in it experience many things.


By the way... Now that I have a little spare time, I've been reading one book after another,
so let me tell you about the ones I liked :)

Murakami Haruki's "After Dark"
Murayama Yuka's "Gentle Secret".
Shigematsu Kiyoshi's "Before Run".
Yamamoto Fumio's "Planaria"

Apart from Murikami-san they were all authors I like to read already,
but I really got into Murakami Haruki-san's work that I read for the first time.

I've started reading "The Wind-Up Bird Chronicle" now.
Yeah, what will the ending be like???

(When it's about her feelings then it's always hard for me, which is why I added all the pictures to distract you from it. Out of all the authors, only her current favourite Murakami Haruki has become world-famous, so his work is translated to dozens of languages.)
 

KitagawaKeiko2006
      
2006-11-20 00:04
 
Subject: i wanna play a game

 
I received tickets for SAW3 from Asmik-sama, who took care of Mamiya-Kyoudai!
Thank you very much!!!!　　(Asmik Ace also distributes SAW3 in Japan.)

...With those me and Kazuha immediately went to see SAW3 today♪
I love the solution of the puzzles in the SAW series, so I was looking forward to the release of 3, however...
3 had an open ending, so now I'm curious about the continuation (;゜Д゜)

Aaaaah, how will it be, the sequel????
Is 4 being made!? I'm curious...
Somehow I've been pulled further and further into the world of SAW.
The punishment of a person who doesn't appreciate life. Isn't SAW deep?

If Jigsaw finds me, he'll probably want to play a game, eh?
I wonder if I can win against Jigsaw?

I spend a wonderful time watching it, so I cannot yet walk away from the world of SAW.
If I rent the DVDs and watch it again from 1, will that cure me of it?!

I've been troubled about courses and such lately, so it was a truly great change of pace to go out all dressed up♪
Thanks, Kazuha :)
If I count it right, then I spent more than 30 hours with Kazuha (笑)

GAME OVER

KitagawaKeiko2006
      
2006-11-17 17:39
 
Subject: It's good to be able to be myself

 

 I had an interview today for the REAL FACE page in mina!
I check out every issue of the mina magazine, so it made me happy♪

Today I could follow a completely self produced plan,
so clothes, hair and make-up, trimming the photos, everything was done for me the way I wanted it.
I made a plan like this for the first time, but the staff around me helped me all the way,
so it was brought to a pleasant finish before I knew it♪

I wanted to surprise you all today by daring to use almost no make-up,
and for clothes a white tank top × jeans giving a super simple impression.
Extremely close to my normal make-up and clothes :)
The accessories are also exclusively personal items that I always use.
So concerning myself by being just me, this time I'm showing all of you what I normally look like outside of work.

Kitagawa Keiko is often spoken of as "flashy", an impression that seems to be strong, so I think that's the image lots of people have of me.

But to me, the image I had as a model, and the images of my roles so far are taking the limelight too much,
so the extremely large gap between the image people have of Kitagawa Keiko and the true Kitagawa Keiko is distressing me.

To be honest, there have been times when it was a real burden, and times when I was tormented by a warped sense of responsibility, thinking "I must fully act the part of the Keiko Kitagawa character inside everyone, mustn't I?".
Recently, I've broken free in a sense, and gave up, thinking "As long as you live in this world you can't escape misunderstandings and preconceptions", but still there were not a few occasions when I felt the "even though I'm not really like that..." dilemma.
(David corrected this paragraph for me, saying "This is a *really* nice entry, which, as ever, means that the Japanese gets trickier.")

So I was truly happy to be able to make a self produced plan today!! Truly.
Today I was given the valuable opportunity to show me as me,
showing you what I wanted to show you all this time, me as I normally am,
and I could also talk about my real intentions :)
Without thinking about anything, without overstraining, just being myself during the photographing.

You may be disappointed, but I'm just an ordinary university student who loves to spend time doing such things as having tea with friends or watch movies.
I'm the type who occasionally skips a class, and who studies frantically the day before a test.
I wear the clothes I want to wear, I'm shy, I have various troubles, I'm sad and hurt if I'm misunderstood,
I'm prone to worrying...
Anyway, I wanted to let you know that I'm just an ordinary 20-year-old.

I put a lot of my true feelings into the interview this time.
Everyone, by all means please check it out :)

KitagawaKeiko2006
      
2006-11-16 22:51
 
Subject: Facing various troubles

 

This is Kitagawa who's been neglecting things again.
Bad isn't it? The lack of love I show for my Blog! ... Is our relationship in a rut? 笑

I've been talking about courses with my friend(s) around here.
For the third year you have to choose your specialty. There's more course guidence this weekend, and a seminar test next month...
And while that's going on, the final test is coming up, I'll become a third year student if you've noticed...

Aah, what courses shall I take.
I've been so overly worried about course selection that I can't sleep.

Finance, insurance and accounting are somehow far removed from the field I'd like to study...
If I choose by what I like, then maybe marketing, management or global business...

Ugh. But what am I most suited for?

The situation is, that the fields I like differ from the fields I'm suited for.
It'd be awful if becomes a "I'm bad at what I like" situation.
However, if I say "I'll become skilled at what I like" and put in a lot of effort then I can break the relation? (Guessing)

Oh no, maybe I've got an inborn tendency for unsuitability, eh?

Un, I'm also concerning myself with the third and fourth year curriculum, unable to decide on something suitable. It's worrying me.
While the class is groping around similarly, I think I'll investigate some documents a bit more...

Haaa... But when I think about my class breaking apart next year, I'm getting anxious already!
I wonder if I'll be able to make friends next year...
The same anxiety is welling up in me as just before I entered university. 笑

Na. It's no use worrying!!
It'll sort itself out somehow!

... Oh, leave that course talk behind already!! (← Harshly said, isn't it?? 笑)

By the way,
Dear Friends × CECILMcBEE have collaborated to make a ballpoint pen!
Ain't it cute?? (※See the photo on the notification)
It's handed out to people who buy a ticket at the theatre.
People who buy a ticket at the theatre had better ask for it♪
Collaborations are nice, aren't they?
It has a sense of mutual gain, doesn't it??

Incidentally, I'm really pleased with the jeans I bought in LA that Evisu Jeans and Puma made in collaboration :)